Friday, December 16, 2016

MEMORIES GIFTS

Is there is a reason for things? Is there a higher energy? Is there a God? Are each of us part of God? Does life really hold magic?

If so, what might memories be for? 

Sure they help you know how to do every thing you do, without memory we might keep burning our fingers every time we tried to light a match. Ouch, what?! Fire? Ummm, Ouch! What? Fire?! A surprise every time.  Walking would be impossible as the body would not recall how to stand. Movement forward would not exist. We would continuously fall, perplexed at our tumble. 

Yet memories also effect how you react and act on an every day basis. They can make you trip, loose sleep, snap at someone, calm you or know insight and love.

In a way, memories let us own something deeper if you like, they let us have a fuel with which to live and be by. 
They are a river where time does not exist flowing through you.  

Say my life were a movie, the vision I hold of my memories could create scenes of either inspiration or doom. Its really up to me, to understand this moving river I hold. (Of course I could create a damn now and then, a pause that stops the movement of memory)

With as much information as we keep, we have something computers do not have: interpretation and emotion. It’s an alchemy we have, knowing feelings can grow and change as we hold that same story up for view whenever we want.
Whenever we want.
We are free. 


Sit with a pen and paper and write one negative memory you have told many times. A story of a time that was difficult. You know the story,  the one that makes people look at you and ooooohhhh.

Look at your story. Breathe. 

So lets say you are the director of the most inspirational movie.  A Steven Spielberg epic of a never ending universe. Why would a director create that scene of difficulty for the hero? How much stronger would the hero be if he is aware the lessons are for his good?
How can the story be used for future happiness?


Now write a story, a conversation you had with a person you dearly miss. Maybe that person has passed away or maybe they are just no longer in your life. It’s so humbling and empowering to miss someone isn't it? YOU KNOW LOVE.

Close your eyes and enter memories. Sense that person.
Breathe. 

Its interesting how when a person passes we see how they were like Gods, these creators dressed in a human life, we understand the softness and strengths they held in magnitude.  We see everything in a brighter light. 

Now here is what I truly love. As I hold a memory, it feels real.  The intonation of a voice is still present, as are the sensations experienced at different ages of life.  I hold every story . Each being's presence was/is immensely vast.  It has remained in me, so an essence is still very much alive. All comfort and love still exist, I only have to open my heart to it. 

To me, that is magic. Humans can revisit time, they can revisit souls or stories and still learn and love. 

Yet...


It is all still happening now. 
You hold these incredible scrolls of wisdom and fairy tales. 
They have been given to you through time. For what reason? 
Only you can tell that story.
You hold them now. 
Use them well.















Saturday, November 26, 2016

LIGHTING CHANGE

Sometimes we think we have it all under control and the universe seems to let us know that change IS. We are all changing, loving, leaving, arriving, dreaming, inspiring… We ALL are. 

This year especially I am inclined to keep that very present in my thoughts. To whisper in the softest way I can so that it simmers and leaves a dusting of inspiration to remember the peace and power of observance during action.

Imagine yourself at the top of a snowy hill. There you are bundled up in a scarf and hat, gloves covering your hands. You are sitting on a sled and admiring the hill’s incredibly steep slopes. How gorgeous to be out on this sparkling day! You’ll just hang here a while and enjoy the freshness. You let your hand reach out and pat the snow and feel, through your glove, a sense of the chill held in the white crystals. How toasty warm these new gloves are!

Suddenly someone comes from behind and pushes your sled. Your neck jerks back in reaction and your hands attempt to squeeze tight as the sled begins to speed downward. The thick gloves have become a burden as your fingers can’t seem to hold a firm grip. Hmmm. Funny how such a simple protection can become a nuisance in a mili-second.  

Your speed increases and you find your mind spitting out sentences. “Who the hell pushed my sled?” “ I wasn't ready!!!” “Shit it’s cold” “Wow look at that tree!”  Shit look how fast I am moving!” Crap how will I stop?” “ How can I be sweating and freezing all at once?” “ I never get to do it the way I want.” “Why?!” “Oh my god I must look ridiculous.”  

In just under four minutes you are at the bottom of the hill panting. You tumbled your way to a stop that left you sitting beside your sled. You look around, you look up. You sigh. It’s that feeling that you missed something.  It suddenly occurs to you, that most of the anxiety that just occurred happened through your own thoughts. That ride could have felt very different.

This has been a year of growth for me that let me practice what I preach. To hold space for myself as the world around me changed. I’ll tell you all about it when I can look in your eyes, it’s that kind of a story. :) 

Sometimes that’s how life is. It pushes you in a new direction and you don't see it coming. It shakes you awake and asks you to keep BEING.  Finding peace and an inward grace during life’s surprises are the lessons we all will encounter. Sometimes what we arrive at is more than peace, it blooms into a new creative force from deep in your soul that reminds you of everything that is truly important.

Every event or sudden turn in life actually holds that LIVE magic. It’s that space where you expand awareness.  



Saturday, October 22, 2016

BEGINNINGS











The soul heard a rhythm, a swishing that held an echo of a universal sound.  It sensed it was inside another soul.  Delicate and new, it twitched and stretched in its form and felt the body it was in adjust itself to her movements.

In darkness and warmth time passed

Among all the sounds that became familiar, one constant voice held the deepest feeling of presence. A familiarity more true than time.  She understood her laughter and felt soft joy, she heard her cry and felt an ache, when anxiety awakened, the soul felt its own pulse pick up speed.  Sometimes the mother would hum and the soul would feel her own heartbeat slow as she drifted off in a deep rest. The soul listened daily through sleep and wake, for an eternity of its own, until one day the comfortable space she had become so familiar with had become too small.  

Pressure upon pressure caused her little body to shrink, squeezing bone to bone and soft flesh towards some sort of finish.  Sounds arrived of her mother’s pain and fear and guilt coursed through them both. Rapid heartbeats ever sensing each other.

Soon, another death or life was near, this little new being knew not which.  The moving constriction came to an end and she felt a strange coolness and space arrive. Moments later the icy feeling hit her fully and she saw bright lights and beings in a blur.  Sounds became so loud!  In a gasp she pulled in air, her insides feeling like fire and ice, a surprise as its power fueled her for the first time.  A scratchy sound escaped her throat and she heard her own wild but somehow tiny voice.  The sound startled her,

 as did all sounds but one.

“Hello beautiful Fay”, she heard her mother whisper.

What was said she had no idea.
Yet she knew that tone. Softness.
Her body was pressed against the outside of the woman she was just inside.
It was not the same, but she was home.










Sunday, September 25, 2016

A HISTORY BOX OF JEWELS



I am trying to keep pace with Liz as she strides in the sand.
It takes a moment to realize I would prefer to crouch down and photograph her.

My friend. She is sometimes in front of me, other times beside me, I adore her.

As a child I kept my position behind her, she was my babysitter and teacher of girlhood into young womanhood. A force that made life look creative and ever funny. A laugh followed almost any story or event. I was less frightened of growing beside her.

I am trying to remember when we parted ways, it was many years ago before I knew how it felt to be grown. Before life had thrown me into me, the bigger stories for one to act and react in.

Yet here I am, walking on a path behind her, invited to spend some days on her island after the loss of my father. She is just as strong and beautiful. Her laugh has etched only the smallest of lines on her tan face of kindness. My life’s laughing, (part of her legacy) has now added lines to mine as well. I enjoy them more, knowing who helped plant the seeds of my humor.

She is no longer my baby sitter, and I am no longer a child. Our age separation somehow disappeared, like two clouds becoming one. We look at each other and marvel as we share stories that parallel our lives from our islands across the world. Each nod of the head holds deep understanding of the other’s choices that hold pure love and admiration.

In times of loss, re- introductions are made. Asking you to open your history box and marvel at its jewels.

Our parents must be loving this!




©Lucy Hamel

Thursday, June 9, 2016

CENTERED

                                                      
                                                        

                                                                    Imagine yourself on a tight rope.
If you sense only the ground below you,
energy moves down and you may fall.
If you think only above you,
you will not remember the rope supporting you.
Yet
 if you listen with your be-ing
to the space under, the space over
and the space left to right of your vision
you become a piece of a whole.
and
float in balance.

Being centered is not a spot, like the sun or the moon.
It is every spot that exists
of which you are.
You are a spot of light among light itself.

Centered is being aware.
A listening in time
That holds a true observer's understanding.
As well as right to space.

Calmness lives here.

In life.
You experience imbalance
yet
somehow feel balance with your place in it.
Centered
All is right and possible.
Manipulation becomes a silent memory.

Movement exists where you assumed there was none.
Stillness breathes freely

  inside of chaos.
Being centered will hold it all

And comfortably create miracles.

Being centered is not a spot, like the sun or the moon.
It is every spot that exists of which you are.
You are a spot of light among light itself.


Lucy





Saturday, June 4, 2016

I URGE YOU TO MOVE


Move.
Do not become stagnant.
Let change happen
Let movement lead you to inspiration.
As fluidity loosens up your rigid thoughts
As a song becomes liquid emotion through melody
and tale.

I urge you to move.
When you feel lost.
For even grief loosens it's grip
When your arms are held high in offering to existence.
It reminds the heart of the joy still within.

Movements are the magic of Change

I urge you to move
To reach out to all you can
Dance under stars
Crawl if you must
Let your toes sink in earth
or wiggle in a bath tub
blink your eyes
squeeze a hand.
Be totally real

Invite those who are envious of your free soul to see you move forward
or backward.

I urge you to move
Swing your arms
swing your legs
or find a swing
watch the thoughts
begin to flow.

Throw a ball in the air
feel it's return smack in your palm
Jump in a cold sea and let yourself gasp
Rise like the sun
To write in your shadow
Walk only for the joy of walking
Bow only for the joy of folding

I urge you to move
Movements are the magic of change
that let your stillness become as serene
as the moon.

Lucy















Sunday, May 22, 2016

ASANA LOVE LETTERS


Ella's thigh was trembling. She stood on her left foot, heal of the right foot raised. Her right arm wrapped under the right thigh, while her left hand twisted itself around her curved back to grasp the fingers of the right. Her left hand felt as if it were grasping for dear life onto a body dangling over the edge of a building.
Sweat rolled down her hair line to the ridge of her nose, a human mini river of effort.
Her exhale became long and hard until she heard the teacher's voice as if from another space and time.
Inhale..go into you. Center and calm through the breath.”
She looked up slightly, off to the distant sky. A bird glided past both teasing and inspiring her with it's freedom. She smiled as if she had just heard an ironic story.
Pressing deeply into the earth with her left foot, she lifted her chest upward and the right leg that she carried seem to move higher with her. Her body wobbled for a moment and her feet and heart recalled learning to walk. Hold on, hold on. Yet she was up, awkward but up. Happiness tilted her cheekbones towards her eyes.
Beside her a tanned woman seemed to pass her in height, hold her leg higher so the brown toes just entered her field of vision. Ella's breathing paused and time froze for a moment of jealousy.
Her body called her back as she began to loose balance. “Shhhh. Stay with me. Stay here. Lets play” Ella felt her heart beat, the sweat, her shoulders being pulled back trying to expose her heart and lifted for just one more breath.
Shaking yet holding on, she lowered her leg and unwound the arms and folded her body down onto her mat. Her body in fetal, her forehead on the mat. A sigh of satisfaction slipped out of her mouth. Ella felt like Ella.



Friday, April 15, 2016

CHILDREN KNOW












Children know. Remember?

There is this feeling when you are running as a child. This feeling of super powers and greatness.
The moon talks to you, as does any insect. It seems odd that an adult cannot understand this.

When you look at the dirt, creativity seems natural. Why would anyone want to move away from the magical muddy growing space? A blade of grass holds a whole new universe, lie down for a while and look at it for as long as you choose. It will sit with you.

When music comes on, move just the way it sounds to your ears. The only style that exists is your style.
I once watched a girl in the grass. She was talking to something in the earth. Her voice like a fairy moving up and down. Boredom didn't happen for her. She was one of the extra lucky ones who knew
how to see beyond. Her imagination let her live in a world freer than ours.
I saw a boy leaping on the beach. His arms waved wildly over his head and he was laughing at his own silliness. He was he. The maker of fun.

I remember lying in bed, looking out my window. I saw Jesus float down and say hello. I was just at that age where you are no longer sure you can share what you see. Yet I still remember smiling at him and saying “hi”.

Children know.

How I wish for each of you to know again. To know how fun it is to just be you. You knew you were the incredible, you knew you were powerful and you knew how to play with “nothing”.



©Lucy Hamel